[Priem19]

I stopped meditating when I wasn't able to laugh any more. I was at a friend's house, sitting comfortably on a couch. I passed my phone and showed my friend and his girlfriend a funny video. They were laughing out loud and so was I, until I became conscious that I was laughing. Similar as to how meditation requires you to be conscious of your breathing. I immediately stopped laughing, and became super serious. Fortunately they didn't look at me and were glued to the screen. It felt remarkably uncomfortable. I tried to laugh again but couldn't, hoping they wouldn't notice. Fortunately I could remain composure and go along but I was desperate to get out of there. At that moment I decided to stop meditating and replace it with going for a walk in nature.