[hiaux0]

(While I may not have had your exact same conditions, I did felt the lowest in my life, before helping out in a farm)

> I’m considering either becoming a monk

Instead of "becoming", you could try to ask the temples, if they need help. I know people who go to temples, and they say, that there is always work to do. You would also get free veggie meals :)

Another option could be volunteer work on a farm, which I did. I attended a program, where you could help out families on farms for a week. They would give you shelter and food, and you would help them on their farm.

It tremendously help me out of my hole, and gave me a new perspective on life. I can expand on that, if you like. Just say so!