[vjk2005]

Lots of good advice here and hope you can benefit from them. My 2 cents:

Find someone who's in a much worse situation than you are - start talking to them regularly, become friends. Ideally, this 'someone' would be a single woman (it's my understanding that you're single) who's around your age. Start from here, and things will change. Patience is an absolute must (the 'as soon as possible' in the last para tells me this could be hard for you, but there's no way around it).

I'd add one more thing I learnt over the years - the strongest, the most tenacious and steel-willed people are those who have something to protect. I'd suggest you find some time to figure out what exactly you want to protect. It could be a person, it could be values, anything that you love but will not survive without you. Once you have something to protect, you'll be able to work your way out of tough situations on your own.

Wish you the best.