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I remember that my therapist (highly recommend that too if possible, being in germany health insurance automatically covers it) after seeing me suffer for a long time pressed me to exercise which I had not done in years (I was pretty skinny too). When I started running I hated the first two times. I could not run for more than 2km and I was done afterwards. Third time magically I could run for 3km without feeling like I was dying. Fast forward 3 or 4 months of running every other day I was running 10km and it almost felt like a positive form of addiction and I was even getting runners high from time to time.

I vividly remember one day around that time I was on my way to a therapy session and I started crying in joy while on my bike, literally sobbing because I was so happy about how much my life has improved simply by changing this one variable. I went from "I don't know if I can live like this another year" to "I love my life and I can accept my handicap as an occasional unwanted companion but now I define what my life is and not my anxiety".