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Totally know what you mean. What I do is just assume I'm going to have to work until I die, and keep angling toward work I tolerate better. I try to invest wisely, maintain a few months of cash savings, etcetera, but don't think about it otherwise. Money is imaginary and anything could happen to it at any moment.

If once in a while I want to use some of my disposable income to spin a roulette wheel or buy GME, and can keep it under control, I see no problem. If I win, it's a nice surprise. But if I don't feel like playing, of course I won't win anything.

Despite having watched it since Monday or before, I don't think about what I could've won on GME this week any more than what I could've won at some dog track. I decided not to play, and that's that. My life continues on as normal.