Please seek professional advice if you haven't already. Advice from strangers on the internet can sound comforting but it won't do much for serious problems that are also very personal.
I am seeking it, and as probably everywhere it takes weeks or months to get some.
Also, it's not that personal, in the sense that symptoms are similar, and ways to address them are also similar.
I'm not looking for comforting tales, but success stories could lift my spirit, which would be helpful?