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Dude you're lucky as hell.

Start from the base and get your physical health and spiritual health in order. Top sleep hygiene, running, weights, meet up with peeps and play soccer. Read worldly books like Hesse and find some spiritual centering.

Then explore the world, even hiking in a national park nearby. Spur on new thoughts.

Then slowly get back into "producing" or whatever you want to do. Maybe go for a masters in something, or just create. Could be useful or just fun.

You're really lucky. You're prob a few years younger than me and have about 90x the money.