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Are you actually even a little interested in any of these things? You mention other things being more interesting. You might be telling yourself something.

Obviously we do not live in a bubblegum dream world and you may not always be able to follow your interests exactly, but I have to imagine that if you examine those things that "seemed more interesting," you may find a new career in there. And if you don't find a new career because those things don't make any money, then maybe don't beat yourself up too much for not wanting to become better at a job that only serves to fund your true interests.