[hnmm23]

hmm thats understandable, ive found im met with that resistance with a LOT of questions i have about a lot of fields that you need an education to understand, yet somehow i manage(d), and will have to for now.

in the immediate time being, do you have any alternative, actionable advice? topics/subjects/key people i can consider or look into that you covered your 3rd year?

not saying i disagree with your comment Nor that i dont want to go the education route, trust me i would love that time and leisure, but right now my brain cant be put at ease until i understand certain things

[arrosenberg]

I'd probably start with basic chemistry and organic chemistry, and cell biology, and probably physiology would help. Once you feel like you have a solid understanding of those, biochemistry, immunology and pharma will be accessible.

I'd start with YouTube and MOOCs. Unfortunately, I don't watch too many videos about this stuff, so I don't have any specific recommendations.

There is also the Manga series, which some people find more accessible as a narrative format: https://nostarch.com/biochem https://nostarch.com/mg_mbiology.htm https://nostarch.com/physiology

Also, keep in mind this field is rapidly moving forward. Crispr was discovered after I graduated, which wasn't that long ago. Try and stick to newer materials where possible.