[IggleSniggle]

I believe we are all fundamentally malleable, and that you can “escape” your past. Certainly, maladaptions can often be reverted and reformed. Still, regardless of where you end up, your childhood environment affects your trajectory as a whole.

Optimistically, perhaps by overcoming the things that currently hold you back, you will later have greater insights and advantages from having to have had to rework that part of yourself.