[maerF0x0]

I know what would get me closer to my goals, but despite many efforts I frequently do not want to do them. Most often this looks like a few days of effort and then a collapse of exhaustion where I feel like I cannot work or do what I ought to...

[jolmg]

Maybe change your efforts so you can see results faster and iterate on them? Perfection is the enemy of good, good is the enemy of fine, etc.

Maybe I'm interpreting too much from your comment, but I would guess the exhaustion comes from not seeing results worth the provided efforts, or not being certain the efforts are effective/efficient enough.

[maerF0x0]

definitely a little of this. However I think my main issue is so many good/real things vying for my attention. I could all day helping new engineers AND all day chasing the bugs everyone is missing AND all day doing architectural review comments AND all day on personal goals ... So sometimes things get dropped and often i get tired of going All Day...

[ck425]

Do you actually want the goals? I realized recently that many of my goals particularly my career goals weren't things I actually wanted, they were what I thought I should want, which is why I could never work hard at then for too long.

[segmondy]

Romans 7:15

I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do.