[thiago_fm]

I would perhaps try something new, such as... getting a real job and trying to achieve real things in life, such as buying some property and finish paying for it(it takes a lot of effort), trying to make a relationship work.

Just try to grab life by the balls, I feel you are too dependant on luck, like finding the job in the field you like and "work at MS". Stop living inside your head or look for an ego boost and try to find a job, live with the complexities of life. I once was stuck in the same loop and decided to move to the biggest city in my country and find a job with almost no money on my pocket or parents to help me. I felt challenged and even though had some adversities, I managed to get through and slowly started making decisions and take control of my life.

You probably have pretty good education and that could enable you to switch to a more demanding career, such as, software dev.