[jedimastert]

> a mental illness I didn't believe I had

I don't know your personal journey, but I think it would be fairly easy to find people with very deep, very real mental health problems who fully believe they do not have a problem.

> The pills didn't do anything for me

Again, I don't know your personal journey, but as a counter anecdote when I started taking medication I couldn't tell if they were having any effect at all, but apparently it had such an effect that some of the people around me could tell me the day I started taking it, along with measurable improvements.

Not to invalidate your experiences, just adding to the anecdotal pool