[jackcodes]

I know it probably won’t be the advice you’ll expect to hear, but I’ve been there and perhaps just as badly.

What helped me was just to accept that I’ve probably got 10 good years, maybe 20, and I’m okay with that. My parents would be in old age, I don’t have kids to worry about right now either and I’ll do what I can to make it better - but I’ve accepted the worst. Even the worst case I’m at peace with. I’ll be 40 around then, which is probably better than most humans through the course of history.

Bleak but also liberating. Makes you value your time a lot more.