[anon9001]

After over a decade of turning stimulants into code, I've just had enough. The idea that someone can do this for 40 years is absurd to me.

If it was possible to go into stasis, floating in a vat, hooked up to a computer, where your employer could extract optimal productivity from you... would you do it? How long would you stay in the vat?

Because that's how I feel taking stimulants every day to get my job done. Sure, I'm an effective employee. And yes, "it works". But I can't help but feel something important has been lost.

[luckylion]

A decade is quite a while, I've only experienced the shift it can produce about 1.5/2 years months ago and have taken it regularly since December '19, I might still be honeymooning. I believe my life would've taken a very different trajectory had I known about it a decade ago.

I've actually thought about being hooked up to a computer and not deal with this failing body that has annoying quirks and issues and makes me see doctors. I'd love to try at the very least. But I'm self-employed and like what I do - not sure how I'd feel about it if productivity gains didn't translate into income gains very directly, which translates to financial security, which helps deal with anxieties.

Do you struggle with side effects that make the experience not overwhelmingly positive?

[anon9001]

I use adderall mostly, not modafinil, but yeah.

It's all still "overwhelmingly positive" to set out the problem you started taking it to solve...

But now that you're making me unpack it, I guess it's because when I'm on stimulants I'm working. When I'm off stimulants, I'm resting but very exhausted from the stimulants.

It makes me into an efficient worker drone though, which is the problem I set out to solve in the first place. So... mission accomplished?

If I could somehow make the same money without having to drug myself, I think I would feel better about the situation.