[mattgreenrocks]

Professional programming is less about raw ability and more about you being able to function within a team, discern what customers/clients are really saying, and deliver that in a way that doesn't create more problems. It's not as much about skill.

Many tech interviews are BS. You cross that bridge when you need to.

Also, there's a pandemic at hand, and that has an associated emotional cost that is not often accounted for. IME, it amplifies whatever fears you have.

Perhaps you've forgotten why you like to write software. Figuring that out might open a path forward.