[Tade0]

I'm the same age and not at all at peace with my mortality - the dominant feeling being envy of those who get to live after my death.

If I wrote a book with ghosts, zombies or other undead I would give the antagonists this as their reasons for hating the living.

Anyway that point about vulnerability is spot on. When I hug my SO I often reflexively blurt something among the lines of "softness is important", but what I really mean by that is vulnerability is important - this is something I had to learn from her and it's what helped me improve myself as a person.

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I think: lose enough ego and entitlement, and you can not only find peace with death but even see it as a truly "happy ending" given the wondrous experiences of the uncountable people that will come after you (and what a petty, selfish distinction whose experiences those are is).

But that's not easy. It seems to take years of thinking about death almost daily and thinking about space and time[0] and history and stuff. And maybe psychedelics, although I never tried those yet.

0: https://youtu.be/5TbUxGZtwGI