[aschismatic]

I'm turning 30 this year and I still feel anxious about death every once in a while when I think about it. But I think usually my anxiety stems not from death itself, but what it means for the life I am experiencing right now. It means that I'll have regrets because desire is limitless, but I only have so much time to fulfill my desire. It's impossible to fulfill every desire. I also fear the pain of dying.

But I guess that's where various religion and philosophy come in, the ones that eschew desire. Maybe you will still have pain, but if you try to limit desire, you also limit your regret, or other suffering that desire can cause.

Life is difficult, but can also be filled with happiness. When you die you will no longer suffer, but you will also cease to be able to experience happiness. That is why death is such a conundrum. Depending on how you experience life, it can be a source of dread, or something in which to seek solace. Many times it is both.