[chahex]

I got fired two times being frumpy angry with my team mates/lead/manager and I thought I could have changed the general hypocrisy in my last job. Instead I spent three years set myself straight with someone even more frustrated than me. I wasn’t authentic but now I’ve learnt to accept myself as i am. However if I wanted to throw an object or hit something really hard in fury now I will stop for a fraction of second to think if it worth(as I’m more sensitive to my heart feeling even in a rage, where I tended to ignore in my past hypocritical self). I once destroyed the phone when I got frustrated with my ex.

[chahex]

I realized now, that when you are in rage there’s still ration trying to speak not to over exaggerate or burning too much of the bridge — but someone not trained to respect self/heart feeling will tend to ignore that little sound...

[mamon]

My experience is the opposite: in one of my previous jobs, due to some circumstances that I will skip here, I became not only grumpy but outright rude. I would literaly insult people, calling them stupid during daily Scrum meetings, never did anyone any favor before loudly complaining "can't you just do that yourself?" first, and so on, and so on.

Guess what? it actually made my life easier, took some workload off me and earned me some respect (or maybe just fear, but who cares?) among my coworkers. I think it also was a factor for me getting a significant salary raise :)