[elric]

I feel your pain, and it sucks. I was sent to an ER after my GP noticed something wrong with my heart during a routine checkup..that was easily the scariest afternoon of my life. There is something profoundly frightening about a doctor telling you to get your arse to hospital ASAP because your heart is fucking up.

Several stressful hours later, the verdict came back: nothing abnormal. Of course, ever since that incident, my heart as been on my mind a lot more than I'd like. Getting a single skipped beat or a few palpitations sets me on edge. But the attention only means I notice more "errors". No heart is perfect, they all skip a beat every now and again, so I "know" it's OK, but it doesn't feel OK anymore. It's a particularly unpleasant kind of anxiety.