[surds]

Last year, I did have a comment on the question - It was good to express what I was feeling and get considerate feedback on that - https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=20477882

For me, the situation right now is almost amusing.

Had I been writing this comment yesterday, I'd have stated that things were fine despite the upheaval in the outside world and I was doing OK remotely in a job that paid well and it was fun to work with very smart people.

Today, I am out of a job and staring at sudden uncertainty in the near future. Still, compared to a year ago, I am more like myself - calm and composed. I am around family and have things to look forward to. The trauma and near-depression from a year ago seems significantly reduced. I am almost glad to realize that the damaged me from a year ago seems to have healed quite well.

The near future is uncertain, but I am optimistic. This shock and uncertainty might just be what I needed to finally get going and find my own path. Time will tell, and perhaps I will too - in the next year's thread.