It really opened my eyes to what AD(H)D is really like from someone actually suffering from it and speaking his mind without mincing words, and how hyperactivity is sometimes overemphasized in the diagnosis. So some people get the impression that if you're not hyper it doesn't apply.
And for me specifically this was so ironic because ADHD was the one disorder that my parents insisted I never had, so I just ended up believing them the entire time I was with them.
But at least now I can think for myself and revisit the possibility for once without being shut down.
And they had once been wrong about me not having this other disorder that, surprise, I actually did have, which is the only reason I was hired into a position specifically seeking those with a diagnosis of said disorder, allowing me to pay my own rent.
And it certainly has something to do with anxiety.
I might have had panic attacks at one point when the pain was new and I wasn't sure if I was in immediate danger. Even after I sort of got used to it and it became "normal," it still stresses me out but not in an "am I going to die in 5 minutes" sense, spurred on by late-night WebMD binging.
I very well could be wrong, but that's almost completely besides the real point [as well the self diagnosis regarding ADHD].
The amount of anxiety you're experiencing in your day to day life is grossly abnormal. I would suggest not waiting another day to start seeking out the help [therapy or working with a psychiatrist] you deserve. I also you suggest you research hallucinogenic medications as something to possibly relieve your existential anxiety: https://www.hopkinsmedicine.org/news/media/releases/hallucin...
https://gekk.info/articles/adhd.html
It really opened my eyes to what AD(H)D is really like from someone actually suffering from it and speaking his mind without mincing words, and how hyperactivity is sometimes overemphasized in the diagnosis. So some people get the impression that if you're not hyper it doesn't apply.
And for me specifically this was so ironic because ADHD was the one disorder that my parents insisted I never had, so I just ended up believing them the entire time I was with them.
But at least now I can think for myself and revisit the possibility for once without being shut down.
And they had once been wrong about me not having this other disorder that, surprise, I actually did have, which is the only reason I was hired into a position specifically seeking those with a diagnosis of said disorder, allowing me to pay my own rent.
And it certainly has something to do with anxiety.
I might have had panic attacks at one point when the pain was new and I wasn't sure if I was in immediate danger. Even after I sort of got used to it and it became "normal," it still stresses me out but not in an "am I going to die in 5 minutes" sense, spurred on by late-night WebMD binging.