[gentryb]

Sometimes writing this helps for me as well. I'm truly glad it cleared your mind a bit.

Please don't ever consider suicide seriously. It's not a way out - but a way to hurt many more than you will ever realize. I've already posted plenty in this thread, and don't want to repeat my own situation.

Please look into the suicide hotline, or feel free to reach out (you can likely find me in my profile) if only to talk.

This is difficult for us all, and I empathize with your situation.