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There is a predictable pattern to these types of posts and these types of life experiences. You have a problem, you discover a potential solution and it seems to be working. You get excited and you try to make sense of it and you want to tell everyone because it is such a game changer! Then some time passes by, the emotions fade and you arrive at a new perspective - that your life hasn't changed that much or if it has, now you have a new set of challenges and a new potential solution will come your way sooner or later. It never ends, unless you at one point recognize that it never ends and cease wanting to be better and wanting to understand it all so much. It's not that you purposely cease trying or wanting, it's that you relax the wanting, because you know the problems will be there tomorrow and the day after, no matter how much you try. That's when 'it's the journey, not the destination' finally sinks in and life takes on a new quality :) For some people, it happens when they are reminded of death and the inevitability of it all, for some when they've burned through their health enough that they can't do it anymore, for others it just occurs to them one day - I can't keep up with this bigger, better, faster, stronger culture and frankly, I don't want to, either. |