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by Loughla
2195 days ago
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The nice thing about OCD is that it doesn't have to make any sense, and you get to know and understand that it doesn't make any sense! That paragraph generally sums up my day, but you do learn coping strategies. I'm not sure if OCD generally gets worse, but mine definitely has gotten worse over the years. Therapy and counseling have helped in the last few years. I can at least leave the house now. I'm told there are medications that can help as well, but I'm pretty anti-psychotropic of any kind after a bad experience some years back; so that's a grave that I've dug for myself. I'll be thinking of you brother/sister. It's never so bad you can't get out of it, even when it seems like it's impossible. Looking for silver linings, people like us at least can say we're worried about the people around us, so we can't be completely terrible people! |
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wear a circle ring around your ankle, or draw a circle on your underwear, so you are all the time inside a circle , and all the time protected inside a circle, so when you enter a square, you dont need to perform any ritual, because you are already protected by your circle and this neutralizes all the squares
sounds funny and irrational but our rituals arent rational too , lol
i used to perform rituals all day, sometimes, when crossing a street, the traffic light opened for the cars when i was still performing my ritual, and i continue performing in the middle of the road, and the cars came and i had to run to the other side and the cars drivers thinking i was crazy
i had wounds in my hands because knocking the wood for hours nonstop
i used to miss the subway ride because i had to wait for someone dressing in pink to get in the subway before me
i didnt try any medication because i didnt want to mess my brain with brain affecting medicines
one day i decided couldnt live like this, and i tied a string with my protection color around my wrist and i said to myself the string protects me and i didnt need any other ritual anymore, then i was free of 99% of the rituals
its so good to feel free
in the beggining, when i feel the urge of performing some ritual, because of the habit, I remembered myself that I dont need and remember im already protected
after some time you dont remember the other rituals and your brain gets the habit of being free
you can try to find some ritual to perform just once a day after wake up, that is valid for the whole day, so you dont need any other ritual along the day, then you are free the whole day
this helped me and changed my life , hope can help you too