[giantg2]

I badly want to quit and have a small farm.

The idea of being my own boss and not being subject to the whims of my bosses or corporate bureaucracy is very appealing (my company doesn't follow their own policies). I have also been tasked with learning obscure technology such as FileNet or Neoxam. This leaves me feeling like all my effort and expertise is thrown away when the project winds down or gets outsourced. This feeling of my company throwing me away or wasting me has completely sapped my motivation (why try when I'll just be thrown away again? ).