[h2odragon]

OK, you've got 'personal" happiness, and found it lacking, perhaps you need to expand your goals... Have you considered public service? Forgo the work you enjoy and the money you can make and go into politics, see if you can do something to make your town a better place. It need not become a career but you might well be able to do some good in a few years, and you'd certainly learn new things even in a few months.