| My condolences to you and their friends and family. What a shame and a total waste; it takes away a person's every future possibility. Things are very rarely ever that bad. No job is worth it. No circumstances are worth it. No relationship is worth it. No property is worth it. No funk is worth it. Progressive incurable/debilitating conditions maybe. When someone is depressed, they tend to experience one or more of these changes: - Cognitive distortions (including over-catastrophizing and assuming the worst) - Miscalibrated/misinterpreted orders-of-magnitude about how good or bad things seem. Inflict a mild setback on someone who is depressed, it can seem life-ending to them. (Ask me how I know.) - All-or-nothing (black & white) thinking - Little nuance. Also, tends to lack a sense of humor and be dramatic as well. - Hyper-vigilance / paranoia - Anxious all the time. Easily startled. "That shadow over there might get me." "There's snipers on that roof over there, I know it." - Less situational awareness - Looking at the ground more - Less eye-contact with others - Avoiding social interactions - Less time outdoors during the daytime - Sleeping more - Sleep pattern disturbances - Sensitivities to light/sound - Eating less or more (losing/gaining weight) - Unhealthy diet - Wearing darker clothes - Less attention to appearance/grooming - Not exercising Life ProTip(TM): When life seems down, get a pet (if you can properly house, water, feed, groom, and meet their attention and veterinary needs. And be sure you know how much time, money and work you're getting into... and puppies and cats like to chew and explore.) Between the ages of about 8 and 27, I vividly-fantasized about self-termination quite often in a myriad of methods. |
I suspect that may be because you have something else in your life that you value. Thing is there's plenty of people that have no friends, no family, no possession. Nothing to value other then little meager work they do.
Take that away, and what would someone like that have left?