[snowwrestler]

Again: take forum advice with a grain of salt. And apologies if you have already pursued this avenue.

It's possible that something is keeping you awake--a fear, an anxiety, a repressed emotion, loneliness, etc. If your mind perceives that resting would be risky for some reason, it won't--whether or not the risk is physically real, or imminent. There is a lot to be worried about in life, from immediate personal issues to global social and environmental concerns.

A therapist, psychologist, or psychiatrist may be able to help. I don't mean sleep therapy specifically, but general emotional and mental health.