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I've never tried therapy but this looks familiar. When I was trying and failing one more advise was too much. I had to step back, find peace with myself. It is hard. General idea is to get all the grief buried inside and release it. To find a path to unbury I sing. Without words. Like lullaby, moan, chant, whatever. It had to be sincere. Up to the point I would not not like accept that it is from me. Kind of meditation, clear state of mind like when running but it can sustain much longer - hours every day. In that state bad memories rise. Sometimes I groan, but generally search path to regret, to forgive myself and the cause of the problem. Walking and singing like there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It is opposite from changing myself (reframe) - not manipulate inner world but trust it. I found it after started rollerskating, then dancing, then playing drums and harmonica. These skills and music especially build from inside. And I believe this knowledge is ingrained in culture. I am not religious but I believe Church got it right. It teaches how to give peace of mind. Forgiveness, rituals, confession, community, singing, sacred place. Christian Gregorian Chants, Islam Quran Recitation, Afro Cuban Santeria. Sleep. It is hard to sleep with alert state of mind. I had a luxury to take three years break from work. Getting back I had to accept needlessly stressed environment. Singing for hours after each working day. Ah, and who needs forgiveness the most is the body which is vessel for such pour soul. Hope it helps |