[james_s_tayler]

> breaking out of that hyper-focus was like killing my dog

That's such good way to describe it for those who just don't experience it.

It's like if you had just reached the decision logically to turn off life support for someone you love. It's not like you just straight away walk over and switch it off. There's this awful reluctance that you have to go through first.

Medication sounds like quite a mixed bag, but I'm feeling somewhat more willing to give it a try.

[ponko]

Something that helped me -even if you get diagnosed and get a RX, you have no obligation to take those meds and can stop at any time. At first I was so wary that I was only taking one dose a week. Might be worth a shot, as the improvement to quality of life can be dramatic.