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Perhaps your mental laziness is an unconcious way in which your mind is telling you that you are not in the right track. Since you grew up in a high pressure it seems that now you need an opportunity to live, for some time, under low pressure conditions in order to obtain a new vision about what to do in the future.

Edited: googling I found someone recommended the book the slight edge, and a review is here that contains the main ideas: https://www.amazon.es/Slight-Edge-Jeff-Olson/dp/1626340463#c..., look for Daisy's review.