[ninjakeyboard]

Meditation + psychedelics? If you have a strong intention to change, it's pretty left field but I'd consider taking that intention to peru and drinking ayahuasca at a retreat. The effort poured into meditation will help you become aware of your behaviours and why they are there, which is the starting point - accepting that you have the problem rather than pushing it out onto people around you. I believe that's a great place to start and that from there you can make some progress.

There is often anxiety or fear underlying many pathological traits, and there is lots of new research showing lasting changes from a single moderate to high dose psilocyn administration for example https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC5367557/

[pshc]

A friend of mine had a couple great experiences with psilocybin, and then a bad trip. Interestingly, it was the bad trip that broke them out of their narcissistic mindset.

[robocat]

I know some narcissists that are deeply into taking a variety of drugs. Drugs are definitely not helping them at all.

[jshevek]

Yes! Anecdotally, I have known people with similar issues who were helped by mushrooms or mdma. They seem to experience some fundamental change in their perspective. However, that benefit came with one or maybe a few trips, not ongoing consumption.

[elevenoh]

> deeply into taking a variety of drugs

The enormous range of drug-effects, motive, and context surround drug use renders this statement near meaningless.

So many are reductive when it comes to drugs, it's a disservice.