[comboy]

400+? I understand one or a few, but at this point is it just an entertainment? Or is it dopamine? If you had a perfect blissful state at a push of a button would you just keep pressing it?

I'm guessing that doing it this often, it's your "relax" before sleep at this point. So regardless of how much your actions aligned with your goals, or if you don't like that framework, how much you enjoyed doing whatever you did that day, you get that kick. I mean, I do that with music, but it seems that to resolve all conflicts in that complicated universe that is your head, you sometimes need to feel bad for a few days and figure out which things are colliding.

[Albedoen]

I am working on embodying Beingness if that makes any sense. It's not like I do it every day. I work with it on and off. A few intense days then integration & application of what came through. I don't have "personal goals" per say, but work more with what is coming though me - living as a form of surrender.