[throwawaypa123]

As tired as this cliche is, I have to ask if you workout.

I found that lifting or intense cardio helps me move out of my funks.

When I'm suffering through an intense workout I don't think about anything else. When I finish the workout, I can be so exhausted that I pass out and go to sleep. that in itself is a blessing.

Lastly, so much of stress is self-imposed. You are where you are, and whatever plans you have, are determined by you.

Be safe. Good luck.

[jurassic]

Came here to say this. Even better if OP can find/afford a gym with a strong social component; I know people who only marginally care about fitness but really really care about seeing their friends at the gym and that is enough get them to go to the gym several times per week. But you won't find this at most cheap commercial chains where people just want to bang out some cardio and get out. You have to look around at more niche facilities to find the right vibe.

[SamReidHughes]

Working out and improving your strength can also give you a feeling of accomplishment, rightfully held, too, when there isn't any other source of that.