Thanks so kindly for the confidence of this statement. I feel like I’m gaslighting myself - if that makes any sense. So many confusing lines of thought that all seem valid, that settling on one just seems tough.
Perhaps try meditating? It's works for my negatively racing mind, usually. My thoughts are clouds, the state I wish for is a blue sky where clouds that appear are quickly dissolved or blown away. Try the trial of Headspace. I think they nicely hit the balance of not trying to force it, just never stop trying. An empty mind can feel very nice.
I never sunk as deep as you though. I get weeks of "stuck on negative issues in my life". Daily meditation of only 10 min already seems to help, I am by no means an expert by the way. Headspace helped me and when I try meditating now, I hear the voice of the Headspace woman (you can also select a man) talking to myself. When I feel bad again I may sign up for the service, but as said the 10 part trial is nice already.
Edit: 2 times meditation advice in 5 min ;) As below, it may not help very much very fast, still, after trying to actively calm my mind 10 min I usually feel better already. Even when it "fails" for 9.5 out of the 10 min.
I second this. Without good health, everything else is so much harder.
So I know unwanted advice should not be given, but I can't help writing my little version down. What has helped me fix my anxiety, concentration and procrastination issues is vipassana meditation - but you need a certain level of strength, it is not an easy path by any means. It will probably not help you as quickly as you need right now. I wholeheartedly recommend it though for the long run, once you have the bandwidth. It has the potential to change your life for the better and offer profound self-insight, if done correctly.
I never sunk as deep as you though. I get weeks of "stuck on negative issues in my life". Daily meditation of only 10 min already seems to help, I am by no means an expert by the way. Headspace helped me and when I try meditating now, I hear the voice of the Headspace woman (you can also select a man) talking to myself. When I feel bad again I may sign up for the service, but as said the 10 part trial is nice already.
Edit: 2 times meditation advice in 5 min ;) As below, it may not help very much very fast, still, after trying to actively calm my mind 10 min I usually feel better already. Even when it "fails" for 9.5 out of the 10 min.
No relation to Headspace btw ;)