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Lookup a 10 day vipassana retreat /with a good teacher/ (important! Bad vipassana can cause psychosis esp. if teacher is rigid. And uve a traumatic past)

In the beginning, you will fight your ego, certain traumas will surface, you learn to accept alot about urself too. The less that disturbs the ego, the calmer it is.

Even to this my meditation is disturbed, but im a much calmer person.

Mind you its complex too, could be a food habits/mild allergy contributing to existing factors. Did you try a water fast with some power coffee?

You can dm me and we can talk more about this.