[nikkikayauthor]

For my first miscarriage - no heartbeat, no detectable embryo - the idea of a “failed pregnancy” somehow made the loss more manageable, like something that never got off the ground. My next miscarriage, which occurred after seeing a heartbeat, was devastating for both me and my husband. A year later I found myself in the emergency room with my daughter, two days after I’d found out I was pregnant a third time, and almost had a panic attack right then and there. It was completely unexpected and really shone a light on how traumatic the loss and the D&E afterward had been.

https://medium.com/messy-mind/emergency-room-flashbacks-871e...