[turk73]

I know you don't want to celebrate, but you should. My wife had two in a row while trying for our 2nd child. It was really rough going for us circa 2007-2009. One of them required a DNC, which was just a miserable experience due to the "abortion" connotations.

We made it through together. When you have children you have to accept that you may lose them and must be prepared to handle it. Still in all, several years got eaten up there with worry, doubts, and fears.

We had a 100% healthy "Double-Rainbow" son in 2010, he's just about 10 years old now.

Keep your head up, be kind to yourself, and be aware that LOTS more people than you imagine have gone through this.

[stallmanite]

Sorry for what you’ve been through and congratulations on the happy ending. Can I ask what “double-rainbow” means in this context? Googling got me literal double rainbows.

[mikeyouse]

A rainbow baby is one after a miscarriage or stillbirth, “double rainbow” just means two losses. Very helpful to know if you are ever invited to baby showers as there can be some outward signs there that reflect some events that not everyone is privy to.

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rainbow_baby

[skinkestek]

So that means I am a double rainbow kid. I didn't even know it had a name, but I know my Mom has told me she lost two before me.

[mrkurt]

It means a healthy baby after two miscarriages.

[ebg13]

Did you try including "baby" in your search?