[throwawayzza]

I feel the planning done by management doesn't let me feel proud about the work I'm doing. That's the emotional component I'm struggling with.

I've been told the things I raise as necessary to be done "will be done in the future" but they never are and I'm not given good reasons for why not. Most of the time it's because people don't consider them important (see my other comment for examples).

So I kind of rebel against that in a way and, while I think my output is better, I'm not appreciated for that and worse, might get reprimanded.