[finnthehuman]

I'm a bad writer. I'm not trying to throw in the towel, say software can't be fun, or that useful products can't be built within the status quo.

I can look at the product I develop and rattle off an impressive list of capabilities, talk about how well it is designed, say why it's the best product for the job on the market and talk about successes in the field. But I can also look at it and see a laundry list of design flaws, architectural limitations and unrealized enhancements that may never get time on the schedule.

The second side of the fence exists, and security people inherently spend a lot of time there. Spend enough time there and you see how the system that is the sum of all software is a mess. I'm not even saying it's a bad thing, just that it's the inescapable reality.

Your architecture is like swimming in a school of fish. By moving with the group you benefit from the successes of the group. Ubuntu, docker, typescript and delivering your product as webapp brings a lot of benefits in featureset, maintenance and training that come at a reduced cost. For the same reasons I also prefer to use as much popular off-the-shelf tooling as possible and stick to familiar designs wherever possible.

You're probably doing better than most. But even with all that benefit, the components of your system are fraught with defects and limitations that in a perfect world would already be solved problems. Both in the stack you use and your own software. And you make it work despite that. Great. That's not my point.

[tanseydavid]

Your writing is just fine.

To me, most of the critical comments seem to miss the point that your frustration centers around the foolishness of trying "go as fast as possible" while at the same time "your shoelaces are tied together."

[rymohr]

Not a bad writer at all. And I think all the problems you describe do exist. I'm just saying keep your head up and look too the bright side.

Be happy that you have a job that compensates you well, aligns with your values, is flexible to your personal needs, allows you to grow professionally, and enables you to reach for the goals you've set while you're here on earth.

And if that doesn't describe your job, please quit and come work with us or any other company that respects you as a human being first and a sysadmin second. Life's too short to do otherwise.