[geowwy]

You hate your job, but you feel forced to do it.

And you've been like that for 13 years! Even slaves in the Bible were released after 7 years.

No wonder you're miserable. No one can do something they hate for that long without having their soul crushed.

Sorry to the people here, but I don't think meditation/diet/exercise will fix this problem.

[disturbed]

I don’t know what to say. You are absolutely right.

What makes me even more anxious is the life my kids are going to have. How do I teach them to avoid the slavery when even I’m not able to break free.

[narag]

Your kids will be grateful that you sacrificed yourself in a job you didn't like to give them a chance. Others have already told you: your situation is bad, but a part of this bad is that you see it worse. It's difficult to tell the realism bits from the defeatism ones. If in doubt, try to err on the side of optimism.