[shantly]

I have bury-the-needle good spatial reasoning and somewhat above average general intelligence. Gifted programs, all that stuff. Ought to be anywhere from somewhat good to very good at mathematics. But... I feel the way I figure dyslexics feel reading human language, when I read math.

Code? Natural and easy, even “hard” concepts. There, my measured natural abilities come out just as you’d think they would. My best guess is I find algorithmic thinking easy, but proof/equational thinking unnatural. All I can figure. I’ve had some limited success approaching math with a “what does this term _do_?” attitude, but it’s slow going.

IOW don’t worry, there are others out there. Sometimes we even get a reputation for being the ones to go with for the tricky stuff. Go figure.