[shifto]

Things that would get me up in the morning don't want to hire me. I'm too dependent on salary to just say fuck it and dance in a flower field all day. You have to be realistic, not everyone gets to do what they want, especially if they want to get paid as well.

I'm only in IT because it's the path of least resistance and to me it has the best benefit to effort ratio.

Ideally I want to work in a diverse IT role for a company that does meaningful things. They just don't seem to want me.

[xupybd]

What gets me up in the morning is that I want to be able to provide. Don't get me wrong I like my job. I like the people I work with. But I have to remind myself the reason I'm in the grind is to have enough money to make life better for my spouse and future kids.

When I keep this in mind I get motivated to have a better attitude at work, to focus. Else I lose hope and get down. But I have a purpose for work, it's to provide for my family. That fills me with joy because I get to work hard for people I love.