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I think corp life is something that is extremely romanticized by public success stories and anecdotes from (occasional/incidental) winners. Everything suggests that you should be in check and control of the situation, but you are not. You are in the rat race and just reacting with your best effort. The suggestive stories contain a lot of lies or leave out the negativity. There is always the 1% that is crazy good, but we should compare to the 99% to stay sane. But they are unheard of.

Kill your idols and realize that we are the plebs that actually get shit done.

Personally I take too little risk myself. I am 40 now but I cannot imagine anymore how I can myself in a joyful working position. I have no fun in hunting new jobs, but getting out of the rat race and getting back into social life would bring way more opporturnities. Also I believe that I am not holding down my 1% potential, but the environment you are acting in.