[rblion]

What you are describing is dukkha and it is something we all know deep down. Aging, sickness, and death are facts of life, this is part of samsara.

This can be seen however a person wants to see it. I am ennobled and encouraged by it, I value life more having seen death up close.

There is a balance and everything is interdependent, so nothing exists in isolation. I do my best work and thinking when alone at my desk or out in nature. Time away from society makes me value time with my family more.

I serve others and create value for them through my agency and I serve society at large with the things I am developing, maybe attending YC for. I have always strived to be of value to society, to make something of lasting value. Now I am.

Instead of living from the mind, I now live from the heart. It looks 'dumb' to the intellectuals but the 'simple people' of the world know this to be wisdom.