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One of the best nuggets of advice I got from a psycholgist was this: call around, most therpists are open to talking for a couple minutes to a prospective patient. Find the one you gel with the most, and go to them, if that doesnt work, try and try again, until you find someone who fits.

You are not unwanted, I'm proud that you were able to reach out and talk about your issues here, that is often the first step.

When you want to give up, tell yourself you will hold on for just one more day, hour, minute—whatever you can manage