[brooklyn_ashey]

I think once someone has carved out a place for themselves, it seems like it’s something to be attained, like it exists as a thing to envy or a “place”to be. But you are only ever seeing a distinct part of a longer, more complex story, the small part you envy. You see your own path more realistically—as the longer story it actually is. You remember its aspirational beginnings and mundane points along the way. It has its high and low points too.

It’s natural for everyone to want to be at a high point when they’re struggling to get somewhere. And then when someone’s at a really high point, it doesn’t necessarily feel that way to them. “Success” usually feels more like success to its far off audience and often more like work to the person supposedly “enjoying” it.

Focus on finding the joy/inspiration/thrill in what you are doing now. Because it isn’t the wild success that will quell these feelings of envy. The envy is more of a sign that you should be doing something you actually love doing! If you were, you’d be thinking about your own stuff and what cool thing to do with it next, instead of what someone else is accomplishing. If you can’t find the joy in your current thing, then work on what you are truly compelled by. If you are in that zone, you will never envy anyone else, because you will be far too absorbed in doing what you deeply love doing.