[nashashmi]

So you faced social pressure to be a certain person. And were exiled because you did not fit. And then your method of escaping that by using medicine was not good enough.

So you face this endless pain and don't have an escape.

[sysbin]

I don’t agree with how you phrased it. It’s more that reality just despises some people if simplified to the root. Since none of us has any real control when it comes to anything.

[nashashmi]

You are clinically depressed, a persistent form of depression. That's like a force telling you to stay depressed. Because that has become your comfort zone. As another commenter pointed out, this is a problem that lies between your ears.

You can blame everyone from childhood to current trends for the situation you are in now. But for as long as you do not conform, you will feel like you don't belong. And so you will seek an escape, but there are none. So you will be tired. You won't have the energy to stay your own person, so you will be suicidal.

You are not trans as you like to believe. You are a human who wants to constantly fight your environment and not conform. Calling your self trans is just one way of doing that.

So stop fighting. Learn to live. Learn to love yourself. Just as you are. Without changing. Then learn to love those around you. Then the things around you. Then the ideas around you. Hate nothing. That is evil for you.

From the book 7 habits, proactive people love first and then feel love. No medicine or surgery can change that.

Finally, read Feeling Good by David Burns. I did. :)

[sysbin]

I'm getting assisted suicide in less than a year in Switzerland.

You seem to be a very shallow person with no depth to write what you have. Seems like you're an evil force I've encountered by fate and similar as other forces i've experienced but I prefer that label for what's best described by the word faith.

People live through whatever is destined and some are just worse off than others because we live in a society under the illusion of free will by religion.

[nashashmi]

We are free to believe what we want to believe. We are free to do as we wish. We have that mercy from our Lord.

What happens to us is not of our wish. It is of his. How we react is in OUR hands.

Don't kill yourself. Just because you believe the world should be treating you a certain way but it is not, is not a good reason to die. It is selfish.

You took up resources in this world. In a first world nonetheless. You took away someone else's opportunity to have what you have. You need to give back. And giving up does not do that.

We live for others. We live for community. We live to bring others happiness. We live to protect others from the problems we faced. We live to rescue others from what we were rescued from.

From the beginning of your comments, you get offended. You don't like things being phrased a certain way. You don't like what you hear. True judgement is not embedded in your emotions. It is when you are free of it. But you are not. So it remains that your judgement is compromised.

You called me an evil force. When I only help you find reasons to live. You commit to suicide. And then instill in others reason to die. What is evil here?

A long time ago I made a comment here on HN. You should read it. Free yourself from ego, arrogance, entangled thoughts, and so on. Read: https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=14439600

[sysbin]

You writing all that is selfish.

The lord is giving me a death by having suicide in this reality as my natural death. :)

Your ignorance to face reality makes me assume the lord didn't choose to share it with you. All you have written are incorrect assumptions and compared to I; who can see the true intentions of fate.

You should be gracious the outcome of this conversation is me just offended at ignorance. I pity the few souls I've encountered for what I've shortly witnessed in reading these brief paragraphs and they've likely been of similar nature while communicated to others. Persons who cannot see reality for how it is and thus blamed people like you with thinking you all have free will. Evil isn't death. Evil is forcing good intentions upon others and as if you're from on high in judgement.

People will eventually lose their ego by not assuming they've become themselves by their own actions. People are forced into experiences until they die and for the purpose of the more privileged that are born later or the few that happen to be perfectly fated for the current system that's society.