Maybe your are still navigating the work culture in the company/region. Try to figure out how much they expect from their employees. If it’s unreasonably high, don’t blame yourself too much. Otherwise, try to have a constructive conversation with your peers and your manager. Hope you could find someone to talk to :)
Some people, and even cultures, are more into shouting than others are. Perhaps this is just normal. I've seen it in marriages, where a non-shouter joins up with a shouter. The non-shouter thinks that things are going very badly, while the shouter wouldn't mind some shouting back in the other direction and won't take complaints seriously unless shouted.